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Orpahanage Visit

I am getting ready to visit to an orphanage here in Siem Reap. I will go with one of the volunteer lady from England who stay at the same hotel with me. We chat few days ago at the hotel restaurant when we had breakfast. She told me what she’s doing here in Siem Reap and her story touched my heart that is why I asked her whether I can join her one day.

Yesterday afternoon I met the Coordinator of this volunteer job and she agreed and allowed me to go with her team to visit one of the orphanage. I am excited and looking forward for this trip. Visit orphanage always make me cry and laways gave me the chance to appreciate my own life. How grateful I am compare with those kids in the orphanage. This kind of activities, go the the orphanage always make me on track again to feel blessed and gratefu, not supposed to complain about anything in my life.

I just hate it whenever this feeling come. Feel lonely, empty, and sad. Don’t know what to do and everything seems wrong. No program on TV interest me. Nothing that I can do can cheer me up. I do anything like automatically, without thinking or feeling.

I started to feel like this since you’re gone, Love. My days seem like has no meaning anymore. I feel like a robot. I don’t see anymore light in my eyes. Thre’s so much that I can do or should do but I am so reluctant to do it. I do not want to cry anymore, Baby but I cannot help it.

It’s been so hard, really hard for me. Never expect to be apart from you this soon. You always said that I was a tough cookie, but I am not anymore I guess. You’re my backbone that made me strong. How can I be strong without you beside me? Without your nice words and your smile. You gave me everything, anything I wanted. Not that I needed but I wanted. You never complaint about what I did. You always gave and provide the best of everything for me. You spoiled me rotten. You supported me in everyway. You called me STBW, stand for My simply The Best Wife. You always said that I was the best thing ever happened in your life. Everyday, never failed you always said, “I love you more today than yesterday”, as per your vow in our wedding. You fulfiled your vow without failed.

Oh love, I want to stop whining, crying and complaining about this sadness and emptiness that I feel. But how can I do that? Nobody I can talk to. nobody understand what I feel for you, Love. Please come into my dream again tonight, Love so I can tell you everything that I have in my heart. I need you my Simply The Best Husband! I need you the most. You’re the best that I ever have… I love and miss you, Baby… XOXOXO

This one goes out to the man who mines for miracles
This one goes out to the ones in need
This one goes out to the sinner and the cynical
This ain’t about no apology

This road was paved by the hopeless and the hungry
This road was paved by the winds of change
Walking beside the guilty and the innocent
How will you raise your hand when they call your name?

Yeah, yeah, yeah

We weren’t born to follow
Come on and get up off your knees
When life is a bitter pill to swallow
You gotta hold on to what you believe

Believe that the sun will shine tomorrow
And that your saints and sinners bleed
We weren’t born to follow
You gotta stand up for what you believe

Let me hear you say yeah, yeah, yeah, oh yeah

This one’s about anyone who does it differently
This one’s about the one who cusses and spits
This ain’t about our livin’ in a fantasy
This ain’t about givin’ up or givin’ in

Yeah, yeah, yeah

We weren’t born to follow
Come on and get up off your knees
When life is a bitter pill to swallow
You gotta hold on to what you believe

Believe that the sun will shine tomorrow
And that your saints and sinners bleed
We weren’t born to follow
You gotta stand up for what you believe

Let me hear you say yeah, yeah, yeah, oh yeah
Let me hear you say yeah, yeah, yeah, oh yeah

We weren’t born to follow
Come on and get up off your knees
When life is a bitter pill to swallow
You gotta hold on to what you believe

Believe that the sun will shine tomorrow
And that your saints and sinners bleed
We weren’t born to follow
You gotta stand up for what you believe

Let me hear you say yeah, yeah, yeah, oh yeah
Let me hear you say yeah, yeah, yeah, oh yeah

We weren’t born to follow, oh yeah
(Yeah, yeah, yeah, oh yeah)
We weren’t born to follow, oh yeah
(Yeah, yeah, yeah, oh yeah)

You are my Father

I will not look at this as a goodbye.
I will not allow the sorrow of this event to destroy me.
I will embrace what you have taught me through the
years and carry that with me.
You have not died. You will forever be a part of my life,
and through me you will forever be a part of my
children’s as well. We are your legacy.
I am proud to have had you in their lives.
I hope they inherit your charm, your good nature, and your
charisma. I know with your influence they will grow to
become good men.
You have raised me to the best of your ability
and for that I want to thank you.
Thank you for being kind, thank you for being stronger than
you know, and most of all, thank you for loving us.
You have inspired me to live life to the fullest,
and never back down.
I will not be taken over by the anger and
frustration of your loss.
Instead, I will remember the days when I was young
and you were my hero.
I will see you in my dreams.
There you will forever be healthy and strong.
In time, I hope to embrace your freedom, freedom from the
pain, and freedom from the weight of your illness.
Sorrow is inevitable, but I will face this with the same
courage you did, because I am you, and you are my Father.
Always your daughter,
Hening Lawson

Earl Grey Chocolate Cake.

Vegan Chocolate Cupcakes.

Focus on the NEGATIVE..

Baking Challah.

Soft Rye Pretzels.

Make-it-a- Meal Hearty Miso Soup with Ginger, Corn, and Tofu.